public &/or private relations

locationships?

even though our pr company (banter media & management) hasnt really started doing anything yet (paid them a few weeks ago, they finally met to discuss everything this week, so maybe eventually something will happen?) i sort of miss not having one. not that i notice any difference in public relations between me and... the public (?) but i miss just on a whim emailing a million different blogs that have never posted ghost animal w/ a few songs and a blurb about us, etc. i'm thinking about this because i just got a weird sudden urge to send gorilla vs bear a new song "young & in love" which i recorded back in august, actually, but was never released until last month on cassette from kill/hurt. g vs b has never posted us before, so i figured it's time to give it another shot. but if i have a pr company emailing blogs for me, i can't very well go ahead and do it myself as well. ugh. i was used to a cycle of productivity: email blogs, they post songs, get hits, feel inspired, write new songs, attention wears off a little, send more blogs more songs, etc. hopefully though now the pr company will do it more effectively and efficiently that i used to, guided largely by narcissism and the fleeting passions that come with a rush of (misdirected?) attention.

i read an interview w/ sean from minks and learned that the way captured heard them was because he sent funeral song & drunk punks to jack from wild nothing out of the blue back in february and within an hour captured emailed him asking to put out the single. is it that easy sometimes? am i flying too low under the right radars? everyone does things differently i suppose. rather put in time, effort, angst, and energy now than go from something to nothing in a matter of days because i was in the right place at the right time. i've never really been that kind of person to whom good or fortunate things just happen. i force them to happen, be it by charm, willpower, intelligence, or a chaotic combination of the three (usually to my own misfortune). but anyway what i mean is instead of being at the right place at the right time (luck/chance) i'd rather figure out where the right place and time are and force myself there.

until then i guess i'm gonna listen to this song on repeat or something.



it's marisa's birthday tomorrow. she's out with her mom right now getting a pedicure, so matt and i are gonna sneak off to guitar center and buy her an acoustic guitar! she's going to flip out. this way too she can start writing songs instead of just making up a melody and forgetting it. matt is still in bed though i need to go drag him up and out.

where the boys are
xo
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